happiest 38th birthday to me

 HAPPIEST 38th BIRHTDAY TO ME!
2 more years before reaching 40

Sebelum ini, masa muda dulu i always wondering why my sisters feel so anxious about everything.
kereta rosak boleh jadi anxiety, scammer call pun anxiety, tunggu lama lama  pun anxiety, and so on.
sampai aku pon kata . rileks la in whatever happened, things takde lah akan jadi teruk mana.

Boom!

when I am at this age, now I know the real fuss about anxiety. Kereta rosak pon anxiety. Sampaikan if I
want to go to a place. I akan congak tempat tu I kena hadap berapa traffic light. and I akan terfikir what
happen if kereta I akan tiba tiba tak leh hidup dekat traffic light tu.  aku nak tolak kereta pergi mana kadang rasa nk ngorat mekanik.tapi tu lah aku bukan taste mekanik pulak . Biasa mekanik taste kat perempuan nama Wani. kan.. random fact. tiber

so I pon sembang dengan of my kakak. i tanya dia, memang gini ke rasa dia if sampai masa umur gini. dia kata yup. kadang kadang dia kata dia buat dok tahu. kadang dia fikir bila fikir jadi stress. jadi kena cari escapism. buat benda-benda kita suka

tak tahulah.

tapi I tanya  nurul yusof how dia handle stress. dia kata bia je lah. I adore ke tidakpedulian dia.I ingat balik ade event tu. We were in her car, and suddenly her car berhenti , tak hidup. masa tu peak hour. jammed. Masa tu rileks je dia call abang dia, tanya howmm ni, I yang panik. dia kata rileks. tiba- tiba all of sudden ade orang tolak kereta gi tepi. and dia still rileks. 

so howmm ?

hmm..cite birthday tukar jadi how handle anxiety....how anxiety is that derrrrrr... meh I belanja gambar gambar sekitar birthday iols.

thank you Kay for being my friend. xoxo

k lah, happy birthday to me