what are you looking for ?

my blog’s traffic nowadays a bit hectic. do you want really know about me? Korang nak tahu apa?

Dekat posts who-is- the- jatey paling tinggi traffic.

Do you really want to know who I was dating before?

I only have an ex. we started dating on 16th nov 2005 and ended 20th April 2008. lamaaaaa dahh. yet i still remembered. yes “ he was fucking left me when i was fucking needed him”. malas sangat nak cite pasal dia pasal dia bodo. i frust bertahun jugak dengan dia. 

then i crushed on andy. tapi biasalah cinta mana pernah berbalas . takpelah sekarang dia hmmm. smak bangla lagi. hehe. 

then back 2012. i kenal the 1. i memang nak kat dia sorang je. 1 adalah kayu pengukur, contohnya 

“ antara 1 dengan amir ahnaf, siapa yang awak pilih?” 1.

“antara 1 dengan zul arifin? 1

even 2 tahun lepas jumpa 1 pasal i gi wedding hani’s brother. i masih lagi  nak kat 1. wah gitu. 

back 2014, i penah plan nak gi jumpa 1 dekat wedding dell. tapi i ended up stranded dekat katil hospital kena denggi. 

why i fell for him so hard? he is the nicest, most soft spoken, gentleman i ever met at that time. his words re nice and tersusun. sampai i pun cakap lemah lembut dengan dia. tapi tu la hes just not that into me. i drive tau pergi wedding dia dengan penuh berat hati. tapi tu lah . 

then i met syafiq. failed jugak, then J. but my important person suka jugak dekat J. so  i let him go.  whenever i went to J’s cafe. He always made my meal so special. I love his bread pudding. 

Then R . Back 2020 i supposed to meet R in Melbourne. Since it was pandemic. R returned to Malaysia and ghosted me. and last 2 years he got married to someone else. even he invited me to his wedding. “pahtu mu ingat aku nok gi ah wedding mu? hmm maroh.

Tried to fall for N walaupun kalau tengok rupa. hmm. tapi it was so nice talking to him. it was the best talking stage ever. tapi tu lah. 

i was looking for TT. but ya. mestilah dia taknak.

For me. no matter how i like or love someone. I always put Allah dulu. cinta Allah dulu. Dia pemegang hati manusia. If it is meant to be. it is meant to be. ( done setazah)

And u . if u like someone or love someone. dont give all of your heart. simpan sikit for you. love yourself. and lived.

“What is meant for you will reach you even if it is beneath two mountains, and what is not meant for you will not reach you even if it is between your two lips”