Will you marrry me?

Baru ni I gi basuh kereta. So ade lah mak chic sorang with her daughter and grandaughter. sembang2 social kampung , then suddenly the makchic asked me. 

“ Kawen dok lagi ni?”

at this age. 40. orang baru started tanya perihal kahwin. maybe orang nampak aku muda . well millenial. 

Tak tahu la. 

Will you marry me?

you know to whom I want to marry before ? Yes I want to marry TT . not because I love him. because.. he lives less than 5 minutes from my house. yes kalau kawen and gaduh senang nak balik rumah. I knew him since we were in primary. and i know hes single.  and hes 42. 

Even he is jobless ( i guess)err okay freelance . takpe duit belanja kite asing2. hes a musican, he is a photographer. he sells pictures .he knows how to make good coffee. so okay la. tapi tu lah dia pun taknak kt I kot. 

back 2022 ade jugak kenal orang. Masa tu I cakap if ade orang ajak date keluar. I setuju je. biasalah Allah akan uji apa yang kite cakap. All of sudden ade lelaki asked me out. tak handsome, semua tak ada dalam checklist. tapi I tak keluar pun jugak. sampailah suatu hari i like a month bertukar pendapat. I rasa nak ajak dia keluar. and guess what he was married on that day. Alhamdulillah, so tak payah nak kat dia. 

I penah sign up for tinder. it was only last for 5 hours, lepas scroll jumpa dokter yang i selalu nampak dekat fyp. dia beli tinder premium. then i paranoid, i taknak situasi bila kita blind date. sampai2 like “ Lah dia ni!?” so I deleted the account. 

So here I am. I am not pretty. Im old, I only have money for myself. I have a sick brother to take care of. I have nothing to give to a marriage. But I kelakar. I can make you laugh with my silly jokes. yes my garang ustazah, berair air mata laughed at my silly jokes. I can listen to your story. I can make you tell your story. I only cook for myself and my brother. Pretty simple meal.

hmm will you marry me? errr.

why you acted weird?

​why do you acted weird? do you like me too? haaaaa. tak tayoo.

20Facts about me? Well People Changed.

This was written on 2014. well I almost died on this year. 

- Since that everyone did the 20facts about me. I pon nak rasa self-centered jugalah.

1. My name is Kartika Malini. everyone who knows my name will say. " cantiknya nama, mesti tuan dia lawa" tapi 95% of people who met me said "hmmmm" hahaha. terkono.

2. I am the youngest of my family yet not be spoiled.

3. Officially on the certificate (bunyi macam serius kan) , I am a contractor. but FOR REAL  I am just a 'puppet contractor' who needs to sign documents.boss suruh sign. aku sign. I know I put myself into jeopardize but pengorbanan adik untuk abangnya, apa salahnya. for real I am a clerk or a runner. sometimes a farmer.

4.i hate gyms. i did several times to fall in love with gyms. but aargh not for me. masuk bilik kedap udara, lepas tu bersenam.I feel like stupid.

5. I hate carrots. i hate carrots. i try to chew it and swallow it, but finally i split it out. kalau I masak carrots, I akan bagi carrots tu lembikkkk selembiknya baru I telan. arggh I hate carrots.

6. my first cassette that i bought was Nadia (Salam Kekasih) it was in 1996. " walau kehadiranku hanyalah sementara, bukan salah mu sayang kira kau jatuh cinta, akan ku pergi jauh takkan kembali, salam maaf permisi ku undur diri"

7. I easily fall in love at the first sight.tengok orang handsome sikit jatuh cinta lalu. bukan susah pon. tapi kalau jatuh cinta betul-betul orang yang I nak tak pernah handsome pon. contohnya pipiyapong.haha

8. I don't drive. i have driving license but i don't drive. but i can drive. whatever.

9. I can't swim. but I really want to.tunggu ah I belajar berenang. facts ni akan hilangggg. facts ni akan jadi 19 facts about me.

10. sometimes I hypocrite in a best way. tengoklah orang yang I berhadapan la.Takkan tengok makcik nak buat macam kawan.

11. I love blackberry phone. Blackberry has made for those who are loyal. thats why Blackberry susah nak rosak. I pakai blackberry dah nak masuk 4 tahun. still tak rosak. thats why blackberry dah nak pupus because everyone dah tak loyal, macam handphone2 zaman sekarang.pakai setahun dahhhhhh rosakkk. kannnnn.

12. I love cats. dulu i tak suka kucing. since my mom passed away. Allah kurniakan sayang kepada kucing. kira gantila. i wish i have my own house. so i boleh ajak kucing-kucing I masuk dalam rumah.

13. I boros.

14. I dah start bisnes dari darjah 2. mak I selalu tak bagi duit poket. dia akan bagi barang untuk dijual, contohnyaa pensel ke, gula-gula ke. untung I ambil. modal bagi balik. so bila time sekolah dulu, poket penuh dengan syiling.

15. i pernah jadi baby sitter dekat nursery kakak i.

16.allergic orang kedekut. 

17.i have 15 anak saudara. hari raya memang kopak.

18. Prefer tea than coffee.

19. for me gemuk is variety. yelaa ade orang gemuk, kurus, pendek, tinggi. pernah tengok victoria secret punya show or miss world, peagant queen. muka semua sama. badan semua sama.tapi i perempuan je boleh gemuk. lelaki tak boleh. lelaki memang ditakdirkan untuk menjadi tegap sebab tu metabolisme mereka tinggi. so lelaki gemuk. please you need to do something. ( belebe)

20.i love myself.haha

Omg, Facts apa yang I share dulu ni? well that was the younger me. Okay lets talk about the facts. Lets make the fact right.

1) Yes my name is Kartika Malini. You may call me Kay, KK, Teacher KK, Tik, Kekek, Kak Kay , Kaykies and Sis Kay ( Only Dr. F is allowed to call by this name wahhh)

2) At my 40s , finally I realised that I ve been spoiled too much.  

3) Im not the puppet contractor anymore.  Back 2017, my brother broke. The office shut down. All the staffs resigned. I pun resigned. I’d crisis with my brother too. Since the company under my name, nak taknak I kena teruskan jugak. I helped him on the small projects.( Abang aku tu screenshot pon tak reti). At the same time. I did part time tutor at my sister’s transit. ( till now).  Years 2020-2025 were the best years. walaupun kadang mental breakdown jugak ( i gained weight) tapi tu laa

soft spot jugak like setelah lamaa aku kerja dengan abang aku, akhirnya abang aku dah kenalkan

aku as “Ni adik saya, kite kerja sama sama”  . Tapi

lately, with the Govt  Beaucracy tapi rasa this year, plan i untuk keluar peacefully dari company ni. I dont know yet, I still istikharah. Secretly I love this job. I dapat pahala banyak. renovating school, building roads for people, supply furniture for school, even I only got small commisions, but im happy to help. tapi duit habis la. duit memang habis. 

4) yes i still hate gyms. 

5) yes i still hate carrots. and I dont eat ketupat sotong. 

6) why i shared about my first cassette? 

7) easily falling in love? really? i dont even know myself anymore? like what? 

8) I drive now. My brother Amru gave his old car to me before hes gone completely insane ( yeah thats another story. it was tragic, still not ready to talk about it). 

9) I still cant swim.

10) I m old now. I treat all people as best as I can be. 

11) Blackberry? btw i never buy my own phone. Semuanya orang bagi. dari i form 4 till now. Nokia, blackberry, iphone 6, iphone 11, now iphone 17 pro cosmic orange. Ya Allah baiknya lah Mu kat aku. 

12) yes i still love cats. i love animals. semua animals berhak hidup di atas dunia atas kadar masing2. 

13) i boros? i boros and broke. dughhh. i never do paylater..yet..

14) i love bussiness? hahaha. tapi tu lah i tak boleh bussiness sangat, pasal i tend to bagi sahaja kat orang. ko kenapa KK?

15) ni fact salah. i didnt baby sit. i dont even know how to handle babies. jaga tolong tengok2 boleh lah. but i am kid friendly. entahlaa, I kalah dengan kids. Kalau masa tu nak marah sangat ke apa, if ade kids, i akan auto jadi sejuk. 

16) still hate orang kedekut. Belanja je lah Allah bagi rezeki kot. 

 

17 ) now i have cucu saudara . 3 orang . hmm still kopak. they robbed me.

18 ) people change. i am into coffee now.

19) no u cannot be gemuk . gemuk sucks. tahun ni, because of kegemukan, i cannot walk, i grumpy, i hate myself. hiding myself, hate myself, so go lose some weights. you will find yourself again.

20) 

My Liberation Note

Tahun ni I dah masuk four series. I ada blog baru untuk I tulis dengan bahagianya www.morekay.blogspot.com

Dear TT

hmm.. TT i tak tahu u suke ke i or dok.

tapi bile kite bumped into each other u side eyes. 

i tunggu u 2 tahun dah untuk u say hello.

tapi takdok. 

so sampai sini sahajalah. bye. 

 

“if you cant convince them, confuse them” so bs. 

did you search on me?

 korang google aku ke? hahaha. iols orang biashe.

Qalbi Fil Madinah.

So kiteorang gerak Madinah by a bus. untuk first timer and for pitstop’s experience, I chose bus instead of speed train. 

I love the pitstops. lambat memang lambat sampai tapi best weh. I sangat suka pitstops yang koboi but offered the best local food. Lagipun korang tidur je sepanjang perjalanan. weh letih weh buat umrah. ( Rinduunya, masa tulis ni pun rindu)

Bile kite buat umrah dulu . ( i prefer next time pun buat umrah dulu) jadi Madinah came so rilex. Madinah satu tempat yang chill and the situation dia more friendly. 

Korang kalau nak pergi ziarah nabi, ziarah masjid nabi. kena banyakkan selawat ( 10k) and banyak membaca ayat Inna fattahna laka fatham mubina ( surah al-fath 1) pasal surah pertama yang turun di Madinah ( if im not mistaken, nanti aku check google balik)

I pergi time musim sejuk. Madinah memang chill masa tu. 

YES, I kalau kat Madinah, selalu kena tepuk oleh makcik uzbek. sorang datang peluk, sorang tepuk belakang . lepas tu dia bisik- bisik ngan kawan dia. kawan- kawan pulak mari serbu I, maybe muka I muka orang uzbek. 

Masa dekat Madinah jugak I did almost everything by my own jugak. berbuka puasa sorang. kakak  I tak tahu kat mana dah. tapi kakak I dah prepared makanan ifthor siap2. thanks kakak. you are such wonderful sistah walaupun sometimes bad mood. 

so it was crowded la dekat perkarangan nabawi’s tu time ifthor. so kalau aku nak menyelit dekat2 makcik2 Arab tu , aku akan guna dialog soft spot aku “ Mama, can I sit here”?

dieorang akan terus buka ruang, and lempar makanan kat aku. 

Btw, bila time ifthor, Nabawi’s memang meriah. semua bawak makanan , orang sabeel. and ade sorang makcik Chai Tea ni ya Allah tersangat sedap ye chai tea dia. and aku duduk betul2 belakang this makchic ni. semua orang kerumun makchic ni nak chai tea dia. and dia cakap dh habis2. BUT, dia hulur chai tea dekat aku, without loooking at me. kira2 senyap2 la bagi kat aku. tak ke buat i rasa so special. then dia paling balik dekat aku then dia smirked. love you makchic.

Pengalaman masuk Raudhah

Nak masuk raudhah tak mudah ye. it was so crowded macam tawaf. but hello aku sebagai tawaf winner,  bring it on yassss. hehehe. 

sekeliling aku macam2 orang ade yang duk menangis, duk tarik tudung, duk tolak. aku tak boleh weh dengan situasi sebegini. aku akan mengekek gelak and beside me segerombolan indonesians yang kelako . “ Nak jumpa Rasullullah kenapa harus jerit2, ayohhh kite tenang aja, gembira2 aja. aku ngan dieorang like YASSS serumpun!

aku dengan masa tu apps nusuk tak boleh bukak. but finally ofcourselah i successfully got into the one of taman sorga! Assalamualaikum Ya Rasullullah. 

orang bagi tips, nak berlama- lamaan dalam Raudhah solat je, so the pengawal tak akan tarik u untuk keluar. aku ni dah solat dekat 10 rakaat dah ni, and it is all about more than 20 minutes. aku tunggu pengawal je tu tarik aku keluar. pasal sekeliling aku ade duk berkejaran. tiba2 aku rasa selfishnya aku. there were thousands outside wanted to meet Rasulullah. Wanted enter the Raudhah. aku pun pergi dekat ukthi pengawal, and asked where the exit. then the pengawal tepuk aku, she said, ya sister, you are a good people, Allah loves u, Allah dah lama makbulkan doa mu” Yasss Ameen.

Tapi perasaan berada dalam Raudhah adalah perasaan yang tak boleh digambarkan dengan kata2 .  You will know. I doakan sesiapa yang baca entri ni, you will be dijemput menunaikan umrah and will embrace this moment too.