why you acted weird?

​why do you acted weird? do you like me too? haaaaa. tak tayoo.

20Facts about me? Well People Changed.

This was written on 2014. well I almost died on this year. 

- Since that everyone did the 20facts about me. I pon nak rasa self-centered jugalah.

1. My name is Kartika Malini. everyone who knows my name will say. " cantiknya nama, mesti tuan dia lawa" tapi 95% of people who met me said "hmmmm" hahaha. terkono.

2. I am the youngest of my family yet not be spoiled.

3. Officially on the certificate (bunyi macam serius kan) , I am a contractor. but FOR REAL  I am just a 'puppet contractor' who needs to sign documents.boss suruh sign. aku sign. I know I put myself into jeopardize but pengorbanan adik untuk abangnya, apa salahnya. for real I am a clerk or a runner. sometimes a farmer.

4.i hate gyms. i did several times to fall in love with gyms. but aargh not for me. masuk bilik kedap udara, lepas tu bersenam.I feel like stupid.

5. I hate carrots. i hate carrots. i try to chew it and swallow it, but finally i split it out. kalau I masak carrots, I akan bagi carrots tu lembikkkk selembiknya baru I telan. arggh I hate carrots.

6. my first cassette that i bought was Nadia (Salam Kekasih) it was in 1996. " walau kehadiranku hanyalah sementara, bukan salah mu sayang kira kau jatuh cinta, akan ku pergi jauh takkan kembali, salam maaf permisi ku undur diri"

7. I easily fall in love at the first sight.tengok orang handsome sikit jatuh cinta lalu. bukan susah pon. tapi kalau jatuh cinta betul-betul orang yang I nak tak pernah handsome pon. contohnya pipiyapong.haha

8. I don't drive. i have driving license but i don't drive. but i can drive. whatever.

9. I can't swim. but I really want to.tunggu ah I belajar berenang. facts ni akan hilangggg. facts ni akan jadi 19 facts about me.

10. sometimes I hypocrite in a best way. tengoklah orang yang I berhadapan la.Takkan tengok makcik nak buat macam kawan.

11. I love blackberry phone. Blackberry has made for those who are loyal. thats why Blackberry susah nak rosak. I pakai blackberry dah nak masuk 4 tahun. still tak rosak. thats why blackberry dah nak pupus because everyone dah tak loyal, macam handphone2 zaman sekarang.pakai setahun dahhhhhh rosakkk. kannnnn.

12. I love cats. dulu i tak suka kucing. since my mom passed away. Allah kurniakan sayang kepada kucing. kira gantila. i wish i have my own house. so i boleh ajak kucing-kucing I masuk dalam rumah.

13. I boros.

14. I dah start bisnes dari darjah 2. mak I selalu tak bagi duit poket. dia akan bagi barang untuk dijual, contohnyaa pensel ke, gula-gula ke. untung I ambil. modal bagi balik. so bila time sekolah dulu, poket penuh dengan syiling.

15. i pernah jadi baby sitter dekat nursery kakak i.

16.allergic orang kedekut. 

17.i have 15 anak saudara. hari raya memang kopak.

18. Prefer tea than coffee.

19. for me gemuk is variety. yelaa ade orang gemuk, kurus, pendek, tinggi. pernah tengok victoria secret punya show or miss world, peagant queen. muka semua sama. badan semua sama.tapi i perempuan je boleh gemuk. lelaki tak boleh. lelaki memang ditakdirkan untuk menjadi tegap sebab tu metabolisme mereka tinggi. so lelaki gemuk. please you need to do something. ( belebe)

20.i love myself.haha

Omg, Facts apa yang I share dulu ni? well that was the younger me. Okay lets talk about the facts. Lets make the fact right.

1) Yes my name is Kartika Malini. You may call me Kay, KK, Teacher KK, Tik, Kekek, Kak Kay , Kaykies and Sis Kay ( Only Dr. F is allowed to call by this name wahhh)

2) At my 40s , finally I realised that I ve been spoiled too much.  

3) Im not the puppet contractor anymore.  Back 2017, my brother broke. The office shut down. All the staffs resigned. I pun resigned. I’d crisis with my brother too. Since the company under my name, nak taknak I kena teruskan jugak. I helped him on the small projects.( Abang aku tu screenshot pon tak reti). At the same time. I did part time tutor at my sister’s transit. ( till now).  Years 2020-2025 were the best years. walaupun kadang mental breakdown jugak ( i gained weight) tapi tu laa

soft spot jugak like setelah lamaa aku kerja dengan abang aku, akhirnya abang aku dah kenalkan

aku as “Ni adik saya, kite kerja sama sama”  . Tapi

lately, with the Govt  Beaucracy tapi rasa this year, plan i untuk keluar peacefully dari company ni. I dont know yet, I still istikharah. Secretly I love this job. I dapat pahala banyak. renovating school, building roads for people, supply furniture for school, even I only got small commisions, but im happy to help. tapi duit habis la. duit memang habis. 

4) yes i still hate gyms. 

5) yes i still hate carrots. and I dont eat ketupat sotong. 

6) why i shared about my first cassette? 

7) easily falling in love? really? i dont even know myself anymore? like what? 

8) I drive now. My brother Amru gave his old car to me before hes gone completely insane ( yeah thats another story. it was tragic, still not ready to talk about it). 

9) I still cant swim.

10) I m old now. I treat all people as best as I can be. 

11) Blackberry? btw i never buy my own phone. Semuanya orang bagi. dari i form 4 till now. Nokia, blackberry, iphone 6, iphone 11, now iphone 17 pro cosmic orange. Ya Allah baiknya lah Mu kat aku. 

12) yes i still love cats. i love animals. semua animals berhak hidup di atas dunia atas kadar masing2. 

13) i boros? i boros and broke. dughhh. i never do paylater..yet..

14) i love bussiness? hahaha. tapi tu lah i tak boleh bussiness sangat, pasal i tend to bagi sahaja kat orang. ko kenapa KK?

15) ni fact salah. i didnt baby sit. i dont even know how to handle babies. jaga tolong tengok2 boleh lah. but i am kid friendly. entahlaa, I kalah dengan kids. Kalau masa tu nak marah sangat ke apa, if ade kids, i akan auto jadi sejuk. 

16) still hate orang kedekut. Belanja je lah Allah bagi rezeki kot. 

 

17 ) now i have cucu saudara . 3 orang . hmm still kopak. they robbed me.

18 ) people change. i am into coffee now.

19) no u cannot be gemuk . gemuk sucks. tahun ni, because of kegemukan, i cannot walk, i grumpy, i hate myself. hiding myself, hate myself, so go lose some weights. you will find yourself again.

20) 

My Liberation Note

Tahun ni I dah masuk four series. I ada blog baru untuk I tulis dengan bahagianya www.morekay.blogspot.com

Dear TT

hmm.. TT i tak tahu u suke ke i or dok.

tapi bile kite bumped into each other u side eyes. 

i tunggu u 2 tahun dah untuk u say hello.

tapi takdok. 

so sampai sini sahajalah. bye. 

 

“if you cant convince them, confuse them” so bs. 

did you search on me?

 korang google aku ke? hahaha. iols orang biashe.

UMRAH JOURNEY 2025

 I sepatutnya pergi umrah on 2022. masa tu dah cantik. I ade duit sikit.tapi maybe tak dapat jemputan daripada Allah lagi time tu. so tak jadi pergi dan duit pon habis. (heyy ofcourselah duit habis. duit manalah tak habis) hehehe. and i blacklist luar negara lagi. if  i pergi ni, i memerlukan satu jumlah wang banyak.

I pun sedih sampai I cakap dengan Allah ,Am I not good enough? sampailah Allah jawab thru ilham . like “Kartika, selama ni mu bermusafir, mu banyak duit ke. sampai masa mu gi umrah. mu akan pergi”

  A ‘ah lah, i tak pernah simpan duit for any vacation. semua fully sponsored, bawak duit poket je”. Yeah it is always good to be me

So aku selalu berdoa Ya Allah murahkanlah rezeki, dekat orang yang Mu hantar untuk ajak aku for umrah till last year bulan Ogos, aku terlintaas " Ya Allah, kalau aku tak gi umrah dalam usia gini, gane? andddd tiba tiba kakak call 

"Hey u nak gi umrah tak on february 2025 ( birthday month pulak, betul2 hadiah from the Yang Maha Esa" I was like, Allah jawab dah ke doa aku " and I replied to kakak, hello takkanlah taknak gi. 

and i wish i go to umrah before 40 ( am i going to be 40?) hahahah so funny. 

Paid amount of money tu unblacklist my name. Checked 

kursus umrah amali dan tasawuf . checked

So Alhamdulillah walaupun perjalanan ada masam masam manis (mutawif tak membantu, beratur panjang untuk checked in bag,45 minutes before boarding baru settle checked in bag, flight sempit, and i was last day on my period!(sipi2))  akhirnya i sampai ke Tanah Haram. Allahu Akbar. Alhamdulillah.

I masuk Mekah dulu and ofcourse I kena buat umrah dulu, Thus this is my first umrah ,so ianya adalah umrah wajib. 

Masa I pergi adalah waktu peak. Nak masuk ramadhan, still dalam musim sejuk. I performed umrah pukul 4 pagi .

Masa at my very first time masuk masjid, thru King Abdul Aziz gate (masa tu i tak notis pun gate tu, dah berdebar kan. berdebar nak jumpa Kaabah weh). 

Masa first time tengok Kaabah. I was so malu. macam kita blind date. bila jumpa dia tersangat tersergam indah, magis, majestic, magnificient dan I hanyalah kain buruk . haaa macam tu perumpamaan dia. and that majestic thing look at  me with love and welcoming. First time tawaf kaabah, i malu, i tengok jeling2 masa tawaf, sampailah i settled tawaf. i tak tengok pun kaabah balik. I malu. 

Masa I pergi umrah kan waktu peaked season. Jemaah memang ramai and I memang dah terputus dengan jemaah I . memang ramai sampai, I tak payah jalan pun, jemaah yang tolong tolak. Settled tawaf Alhamdulillah. 

Time Saei, kakak I pun tak tahu kat mana dah. So I decided untuk performed saei sorang la. Tiba2 ade jemaah yang datang sekali out of nowhere, genggam tangan I, dia kata jom Saei sama2. Dia memang tak lepas tangan i . It is our love language masa tu. I tak tahu  dapat tenaga dari mana. Memang rahsia Tuhan, we ran weh masa saei. It was so smooth. like did I did that? Done. That’s was very first umrah. Dah dapat tittle Hajjah kecil. Alhamdulillah. AllahuAkbar!  and lepas umrah tu, jemaah yang genggam tangan I , kiteorang tak rapat pon after that ! hahaha

Okay cerita pasal Kaabah. so lepas je umrah. I memang flat. so I tidur. So dekat zuhur I baru nak masuk masjid. dan I tercari pintu yang straight nampak kaabah semalam. TAPI I TAK JUMPA WEH. I TAK JUMPA KAAABAH WEH. Rasa rinduuu nak tengok KAABAH. pasal pintu tu semalam dekat je. Ni aku rasa kes semalam tak appreciated Kaabah. So Kaabah dah merajuk. Cari dari zuhur sampailah asar. TAK JUMPA PINTU KING ABDUL AZIZ TU!

sampailah maghrib. I lambat nak turun masjid, so I terpaksa solat dekat dataran je. And magical was happen. I solat betul2 depan pintu yang masuk semalam. and it is just in front of me yang dari Zohor hingga Asar  I cari tadi. I saw Kaabah like it was teasing to me. Like orang dah tunggu dia lamaaaaaaa. Tapi dia buat tak tahu je. Padahal , Kaabah tak tahu yang kita berdebar tengok dia pasal dia lawaaa sangat.

I performed umrah twice, and did few jugaklah gor tawaf sunat alone. Memang seronok. I banyak alone dekat sana. Pasal kakak I pun buat hal masing2. Memang tenang. tenang tu tak dapat dekat mana2. Tenang yang dirindui. Tengok kaabah tu rasa tenang. Ade lah few things happen tapi I simpan untuk diri sendiri. 

Alhamdulillah I dapat roomate yang sangat baik. Ateyn Manoban. Yes, dia Blink Lisa Blackpink. kalau pergi sightseeing dekat sana, kiteorang akan pergi sama2. Pasal dia pandai ambil gambar.

Alhamdulillah , tak ada masalah roomates, tak ada masalah bilik, hotel dekat ( walking only 5 minutes to masjid, memang Allah Maha Penyayang, I love you Allah, jemputlah lagi).

done umrah first at 39.

The langit after done the first umrah.

selfie with the clock tower.

Masa ni lah lepas cari kaabah dari zuhur ke asar. padahal depan mata je.

king abdul aziz. masuk terus nampak the Holy Kaabah

at the dataran burung merpati.

 

my Ateyn Manoban

at the rooftop

Masa ni tawaf sunat sorang. and tengah healing kejap.

roti canai mekah

the nasi. Sangat sedap mashaAllah.

the tea makcik

nantilah uplod lagi. and next cerita Madinah pulak

hello 2025!

 I thought 2023 was the worst year, but cant beat 2024. 2024 was hmmm i dont know. macam z kata kite ni bangun je tidur. 

btw, hi everyone.

since this month is my birthday month. tahun last untuk i menjadi in thirties.inshaALLAH. and life begins at 40. wow time move so fast huh.but still low money. 

ade orang baca personaliti I thru the metafizik . aku memang akan sentiasa low money pasal suka bagi duit dekat orang. ni kena salahkan gen Omar b Sulong la. I got it from him. tapi betul la tu if I ade rm50, rm50 tu lah I belanja orang. Korang doakanlah I menjadi kaya. Pasal kekayaan I akan sampai dekat korang jua. tibeh 

btw, inshaAllah Im going to umrah this month. Hope everything will be smooth and easy and mabrur. inshaAllah.